Saturday 7 May 2016

That Moment... which was more than life.




"Oh Lord! I love this person this very moment.. more than anything.. It might seem like exaggeration but I am willing to give up everything I have ever earned for this moment...", she screamed in her mind right when he their eyes met and both uttered those three magical words in sync. That sleek smile she could not hide and ended with a soft kiss on his forehead.

It was just another day like almost every day. Same place. Same person from last one year or so. Starting from being strangers to knowing each other more than own-self, it was not all rosy. But as they say when something is meant to be, it will. No matter what. From meeting casually to spending almost each moment together, there has been fears, insecurities, love, understanding, care, trust, fights over past, frightened for the future or the lack of it!

Surely, it was not the first time that they were lying down on bed..relaxing.. talking.. There has been many such talks which started before sunset and ended after sunrise. There has been many such moments worth mentioning. Moments.. of truth..of secrets.. of trust.. of togetherness.. of sharing fears.. of just being there.. of love.. and many more...

But this was all total a different moment. She felt something she had never experienced before. She never knew how to react to this feeling. This was something she always avoided. Something that seemed a bollywood cliche and nothing more.

And then.. here it was. All of a sudden.

It was not like those butterflies in your stomach on seeing your crush.. or skipping a heartbeat when you see your love.. It made her feel accomplished. It made here feel secured.. That sense of being complete...may be for a moment. But hey!! Who cares!!!! People live all their life and die without getting it.

That one moment.. changed her inside out... set her free... She was a new person now. It made her feel that freedom she always desired for. She could not thank enough for that.

She understood that after that very moment everything will again be the same may be. May be she will never experience it again.. May be that person won't even realize that he meant the world to her..But then..isn't it worth it!

She kept her pen down with that with a smile on face when his presence in her heart overtook her mind.... :)

I wish you would get me right..this time!



















I have seen you laugh and cry
I have seen you give in and try
You might have tried real hard to hide
But trust me.. That's not a pride...

Tell me or not ..some day.. any day..
You may keep it all at bay
But would you be able to live with it
When you will see your girl follow your way!

You say I must trust you and share secrets
For noone but you can keep it discrete
But everytime I come to you with hope
You ignore the opprtunities and highlight the threats!

I do understand that you love me a lot
But what good it is if it makes me rot
I have always adored and always I will..
For all that you have been and all that you did.

There have been moments I was so broke
And I always wondered should I settle in those strokes
But today I promise you just one thing
That I won't let anyone tame my wings..

I will make sure that I will be me..
And not be blindly following unresistant sea
I won't bend myself to fit in the box..
Rather I will jump out and set myself free...! 




This post is a part of Write Over the Weekend, an initiative for Indian Bloggers by BlogAdda.

Tuesday 22 March 2016

THE MIRAGE





Hiding herself beneath the table...
In a corner of the empty room...
She cried.. and cried.. and cried...
Till she could not catch her breath anymore...

Afraid of the light... And the dark...
Running from the known...And the strangers...
What she was left with...
Was the restless mind with a thousand questions...

Questions that never got answered...
Wails that never got consoled...
All she achieved was...
That hollowness in heart to keep haunting her...

Between catching up with the ever galloping world...
And still keep surviving the white collar sweet lies...
What she forgot was...
To live for..and to love.. herself...

Within those turmoils of ever broken promises...
And being able to forgive everyone but herself...
Though torn apart inside every moment with the truth...
Still she kept chasing... The Mirage..

The Mirage... called life...
The Mirage... called love...
And...
The Mirage... was you...

For all she could not do...
Was stop loving you...

Saturday 23 January 2016

Unspoken.. Unheard.. Yet Felt....




"Is it my mistake that I love myself more than I love others..
Or that I decided to move on rather than fitting into the so called definitions by society..
Or that I fell for someone totally unexpected at such an unexpected moment!!!
Is it my fault that the past is messed up..
How am I responsible for what someone does with their past!!
Whether they decide to stick to the past or to move on..
It is solely their decision and NOT MINE!!!
And if you can't accept it.. that's YOUR problem..not mine..
Just because it din't turn out the way you imagined..
You cant blame me for that.. Unless you are weak enough not to respect yourself and move on...
I AM NO MISTAKE of anyone.. Listen it loud and clear..
And you or anyone is no one to label me..
Now.. Go and get your shit together..
Move on before you are done and dusted literally...."
, she said in her mind staring at nowhere..
Because she knew no one will understand but the diary..
No one will be bothered or care but the emptiness...
No one will ask how she feels because she is the so called strong minded brave heart girl...
No one will listen because truth makes people uncomfortable...
All she has is her faith.. that someday someone will look into her eyes..
And just let the silence do the talking......



Clueless yet loved...




What if I was not me and you were not you...
Could we still be we and do the things we do!!!

I know it seems so weird at this moment to say...
But what if we could go right back to the way...
The way it was before we met.. before these feelings were set..

Would you still have been the same!!!
I wonder if you would even call my name...

When the world is asleep.. The silence is loud...
So many thoughts cover my mind like cloud...

I can't sleep.. I can't stay awake..
I am still clueless which path to take...
Sometimes I wonder is it a mistake...
All that I feel is for real or fake.. 

No more I can distinguish between..
The crossing line has become so thin...
It's creating such an illusion..
Leaves me undecided which side I am on...

I still can't say why I am here...
All I can understand.. All I can hear...
Is my inner little voice that says you are dear...
And not worth losing for such vague fear...

So here I am.. With all my heart..
Till the time will tear as apart... :)